The 4th February 2019 at 21:03 GMT
For several years, Little Spirit had tirelessly focused his attention on what he would like to do if he was ‘free’ to ‘do’ anything he chose, just as he had been instructed by his teachers and by many a successful self-help guru. And yet he was sterilized by anxiety, he could hardly feel himself anymore.
Still he tried to find his way, yet dizzy from the thought that tomorrow has kept coming day after day, spinning endlessly before him, burning harshly into his sOul and yet nothing felt like it had ‘happened’. So many things to accomplish, so many aspirations to fulfil, so many expectations to live up to, so much pressure to become someone, something, anything, he had become a prisoner of his future self.
There he lay, filled with emptiness, despite all that he had, wondering why it had not happened, why the lack, when he had truly envisioned his path. He had elucidated much support from respected luminaries; he had replicated the strategies of those who had ‘made’ it; he had offered back a percentage of what he had earned; he had travelled the length and breadth of the country, following up on all leads, and saying Yes to all doors that had opened for him. He had done his vision board; he had written his million euro cheque to himself; he had done all that he could have done so that he could make it happen, and yet, the dark void threatened to engulf him.
‘Stop thinking ahead Little Spirit‘
Bolt upright on his bed, Little Spirit looked around to see where the voice had come from, rudely breaking through his internal convoluted cacophony.
‘It is not about who you will become. It is about who you are’.
Still confused as to where the Voice had arisen, Little Spirit spoke aloud, “that’s confusing, after all I will become more of who I am, as I focus on developing my skills and talents and with a positive frame of mind, I will become successful”.
‘And that is why you will fail’
Dumbfounded, Little Spirit struggled to keep it together. ‘I don’t need your negativity, whoever you are’, he exclaimed.
‘Little Spirit, as long as your focus is outward; as long as you long and desire; as long as you hunger for acknowledgement and success, even if you pretend that you just want enough to be happy; as long as you live in a world that has not happened, you will fail’
Little Spirit could feel whatever light that existed within begin to fade into the black.
‘Don’t despair Little Spirit. You do not need to become someone and you certainly do not need to ‘better’ yourself. You already ARE. You are you, not someone else’s version of you.
If you draw your attention into your Now; if you change your languaging from hoping, longing and envisioning; if you focus on creating from your heart with utter abandon and conviction; if you feel what you do, and lOve it utterly, then you will be. Content will settle within; peace will engage you for you are already you; you are already abundant; you already are fully actualised. You do not need to become anyone. You do not need someone or something to fulfil you. You have all that you need within you.
What you have to decide Little Spirit, is how you engage with your life.
It ultimately does not matter whether you are famous, wealth, successful or even if you are in a relationship. You do not have to prove yourself to anyone or even to yourself; you do not have to live up to any expectations or to fulfil your destiny, after all they are both illusory concepts developed to enslave you to fear and to keep your focus from the Now.
What matters is how you conduct yourself; whether you live freely and truly from your heart; whether you live with lOve; whether you raise up your awareness, your consciousness and your sOul; whether you are present for yourself and for those who join your path; and whether you see through the illusory carrot dangled in front of you that only serves to distract and entrap you.
What matters is whether you believe in yourself and whether you live from your heart, and with your heart. As you live from a place of lOve; as you live as you lOve; as you live with those as you lOve; you breathe you out into your world, and other people will breathe you in. They will not breathe in their version of you, nor will they attempt to mould you to a vision of what they have foreseen for you. No, Little Spirit, they will be vitalised by you and support you or they will turn their heads away from you, breathing in someone else’s spirit. You will know then that they are not for you.
What matters, Little Spirit, is not the destination, but the journey that you are now on, and the way that you travel, after all, tomorrow may never come. How would you feel if this was your last breath, having lived elsewhere all your life, chasing windmills, never realising that you are ever actualising, ever growing, ever becoming more conscious, which will consistently alter what you ‘envision’.
Your path is not singular. There is no end destination. There is no ultimate goal. You know that Little Spirit. So turn away from the path that does not currently exist and ask yourself, have you lived today as you would lOve to live? Remember that there exists a simple truth – nothing is guaranteed.
So don’t be afraid.
Be what you lOve.
And with that the Voice disappeared, that dimmed light strengthened, burning endlessly enveloping the darkness, chasing away the shadows and the noise, leaving Little Spirit able to breath freely, his senses sharpened to the Now.
In a world where ego is desperate to be validated; in a world wherein human contact is being reduced as time speeds and the consumerist demands of a world out of control forces you to have less quality of time, increased fatigue and decreased concentration; and in a world that is hungry for you to express your opinions digitally so that a data company can profile you further; in a world where you have access to so much information that it can be overwhelming to decipher quality over soundbites, it is so easy to become incensed by injustice, by vindictiveness, by petty small mindedness and by ignorance.
It is too easy to conform to the priming that constantly surrounds you, morphing into someone else’s version of you, relegating the truly creative you into an abyss of condemnation and castigation. It is too easy to feel defeated, when you have been taught to centre your focus ahead, since your future will be more abundant, happy and successful, if you do something more, be something more, become someone more, thereby creating from a deep sense of lack, impoverishment and unworthiness. It is no wonder that the future feels as if you are perpetually tilting at vanishing windmills.
As the Voice challenged Little Spirit, so too must you challenge yourself to breath in, to listen in, and to create from your Now. You are already what you are. You are already all you require. You do not need to become more. But perhaps you do need to be more conscious of who you are and live in utter consort with that person, not compromising or conforming to someone else, never wavering from your convictions and utterly being true to you. This process has been somewhat more consciously supported as your Yang Light has turned inwards since the 20th January. Where your consciousness is currently being drawn to is the breath that you share with the world as you are being called upon to explore the quality of the intention that will accompany YOUR air, air that will be absorbed into others, energetically impacting their essences and consciousness. In the days leading up to the renewal of your ability to inward reflect, it would be useful to contemplate whether you are true to YOUR inner convictions, even when distracted; are you true to what you believe, at all levels and not just within the sanctuary of your inner castle; are you walking your beliefs, or are they merely ideals to aspire towards, when it best suits and when you remember; and are your beliefs truly yours or someone else’s manual?
After all what you create is generated from the quality of your heart in the Now, a heart whose energy is imprinted in all that you are. If you seek to create a more abundant version of you in the future, you are therefore creating from a state of impoverishment in the Now, thereby reinforcing impoverishment and creating further impoverishment. Therefore if you know that you are abundant, you feel it, you live it, you are it, your path blossoms with abundance…
This time is about focusing on the quality of your inner mind and what will be shared with the world through the quality of your breath.
What, therefore, is the quality of your current mind, and in turn, what do you breathe out into the world?
If you do discover a persistent virus embedded deep in your mind – like you are not good enough – know that the energetics of the forth coming lunation can support your intent to plant a new thought that will germinate within you, blossoming from a place of abundance, replacing the abyss with fullness. Reflect well, reflect honestly, breathe deeply inwards and be very conscious what you breathe out into the world.