The New Moon in Cardinal Water (Cancer) sextile Uranus and square Chiron on the 2nd July 2019 at 19:16 BST in Dublin, Ireland
Having emotional independence means we are no longer tied to the need for constant approval and are, therefore, not coerced into doing more than we feel comfortable doing by our need to please others. Sue Thoele
Aching for connection, longing to live in a world filled with meaning and unity, her belief in herself and her dreams feel like a distant echo. Her mind awash with negative chatter, her heart weighed down by a leaden weight, the constant bombardment of a disenchanted world in perpetual chaos, washed of colour by fear and uncertainty, Little Spirit despondently sat exhausted on a sandy bank of a river delta. Lying back, she listened to the rhythmic breathing of the sea and stared up at the darkening clouds. Conscious of her shallow breathing she took a deep breath and allowed the sound of the waves engulf her awareness. Sensing herself fall from consciousness, she heard a voice inside her speak, “Get up and walk into the sea”.
Too tired to complain or answer back, something in Little Spirit found herself rise from her semi-conscious state, remove her shoes and clothes and walk towards the wild white horses. Jolted back into reality, the coolness of the crashing waves rises quickly through her as her shins are devoured by the hungry foam.
“Enter the water and be cleansed and renewed.”
Already committed, shivers cascading through her, she obediently walked deeper into the sea.
“Walk further into the ocean but keep your feet on the shore. Don’t try to keep your head above the waves.”
Wave after wave tumbled to its death as Little Spirit waded further into the sea. Reaching a point just before she would have to tread water, Little Spirit stood, head above the water and let the next wave crash over her. Feeling anxiety rise, she heard the voice say “Trust and let go and let the waves move through you”.
Breathing in deeply and holding onto the air, she surrendered and let the next wave go over her head. She felt a rush of energy pass through her as the crest moved over her, swallowing her for a moment and then it was gone, as the wave foamed and died. Another wave, followed by another engulfed her, not before giving her enough time to take breath after breath, drawing into her lungs a highly charged ionized air.
“Feel the power of the waves replenish and revitalise you”
Feeling the power of water in motion, Little Spirit’s awareness was emptied of everything bar the sensation of life rekindling.
“Remember this feeling, Little Spirit, the next time you feel emotionally overwhelmed. It will quieten your heart and will open your soul to feeling the support that never leaves you. If you want to hear and see the invisible world, if you want to drink from an unknown source, if you want to feel the support from your angel, you have to empty yourself. It is only through a state of emptiness, when your Monkey Mind shuts down, when your focus is utter and totally immersed on your feelings that spirit can talk through you, completely and freely, without censorship or scepticism. Like the ocean that is water in motion, your angel is love in motion. If you want to hear what it has to say to you, then you have to empty your mind. Within the emptiness your ego dies and is simultaneously reborn, just as the river dies when it enters the sea, its waters rising to the sky, waiting to be returned by falling to earth in the rain.
The ocean, like the angelic realm, is where you have come from and where you will return. It is the source of everything. In the same way that a river feeds the ocean but dies in the process, every day your emotions feed you and need to be released. If you emotions are held onto, stagnancy occurs and you start to die. When you empty yourself, spirit can once again talk freely and you can feel the gentle presence of your guardians and you will realise what you need to do.
Your emotions move you, your feelings create momentum, and your reality is created by the power of your emotional responses. When those emotions are swamped by fear, there is no momentum. In turn your imagination eventually becomes a dry, barren desert inhabited only by tumbleweeds and dirt. And in this state you cannot hear your support which in turn creates further stagnancy.
Your living, fluid feelings are your life blood. They are what inspire and fuel you. They are like the wave, energy in motion. Don’t fight them. Accept them and let them move through you. Feel their energy. Feel their power. Draw this power into your awareness and feel reborn and refreshed. Listen to the feelings that arise in this state. They come from your Angel. They are there to help you. They are there to create your life.
“It is time to dry off”, the Voice said
Turning her back to the waves, Little Spirit returns to the shore as a ray of light breaks through the grey canopy, filling her empty room with hope.
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Let me ask you to reflect, for a moment, on what it would be like if you spent time with a close friend, but couldn’t freely express the love between you? What if you attended your child’s first school play and you couldn’t feel the utter joy and pride as s/he stands on the stage, her/his nerves melting into a huge smile having actively sought and found your face in the crowd? What if you felt nothing as you stand on top of a mountain looking down over creation as the Sun rises on a clear summer’s morning or if your favourite sports team finally wins their first trophy after years of trying?
Your emotions are a natural part of your existence and they allow you to experience the textures and colour of life. Without them, you can still spend time with your family and friends, attend the milestones in your child’s life and witness your team’s successes and failures, but without what would be the point without experiencing the accompanying feelings?
But what if you didn’t need someone or something to trigger an emotional response? What if you didn’t need a memory or a wandering mind exploring the future possible what ifs? What if you were the creator of your own emotional expression? Within you are wings to enable you to fly as opposed to crawl and those wings can be unfurled if you can open up your heart to freely express the power of your feelings and imagination. A tall order and a frightening experience as there are enough mechanisms in place to keep you at bay or to channel your power into people and circumstances that do not have a vested interest in supporting you, merely using you for what you can do for them. Yet you are presented, during this eclipsed Cardinal Water New Moon, with the opportunity to feel the strength of your emotional power, to channel it through you so you can heal and release those pacts made with yourself that have kept you at bay, to feel your heart revitalise your spirit and to release those emotions that have been moulded and shaped by those within your world.
When you take the time to generate a new emotional response to something in your life, you effectively create a new template of possibility that is available for anyone to access. You become an emotional generator. Or to use astrological language – you access the inner Cancerian within you!
Known also as Cardinal Water, Cancer symbolises, amongst other themes, the foundation of creation of your emotional body. It is within this dimension of your overall consciousness that you are being given the opportunity to feel the first whispers of intuition in your soul’s journey since it is through this initiatory gateway that your sOul is guided into the place of experience from the place of the Heart. Remembering to create as opposed to react is something to keep uppermost in your awareness as the Divine Mother archetype awakens within you, enabling you to see with your heart and hear with your sOul, opening you up to all raw and vulnerable feelings, supporting you and guiding you along a path of emotional intimacy.
But will you give yourself permission to experience the extent of your true feeling nature? Can you allow the healing consume you by a very open expression of your inner world within the world around you? Do you know that you have support from invisible sources that are there to guide and assist you? Can you feel the inner conviction of the rightness of your discernment when you openly disclose your private universe? What if on a grey day you were to choose to have a good feeling even if the weather outside does not generate it for you? What if you were to choose to respond from a place of compassion and love, as opposed to irritation or anger to any stresses and strains that arise in your life?
So within this highly emotional time, your freed emotions could be channelled successfully into bringing into reality your inner vision of how things could really be as dissolving are the boundaries that protect your light and awakening is your spirit to who you are becoming; a more connected bridge to your sacred heart – your “I AM” self – is being built; and a stronger sense of spiritual connection is opening up for you, as you are better able to channel a vision and creative essence than before. Intruding upon your everyday reality through the medium of angelic intervention, weird serendipitous occurrences, the desire to pray or meditate, the hunger for stillness and to shed the dense toxicity of your body and through the longing to have the unconditional space to engage in your soul’s creativity are but some of the examples of how Spirit is gently whispering to you and encouraging you to take up your bed and walk.
To truly hear those whispers you may need to walk with Little Spirit into the waves and let the water’s power move through you, cleansing and vitalising you to your core. If you do not have access to the ocean, or it is winter where it is you are absorbing these words, then find a quiet place and empty yourself by becoming attentive to the feelings invoked by the constant stream of chatter that exists within. Remember that you are being offered the opportunity to acknowledge and understand your own feelings so that you can start to generate your emotional reactions from a place within you as opposed to in collusion with the world around you. In other words, this eclipse lunation is all about being more clearly and openly connected to your core emotions, accepting them and become acutely aware of how they affect your decisions and actions, so that you are in a better place to express your feelings, as well as reciprocate intelligently, without prejudice and expectation, to those feeling states of those within your close ‘family’, a lover, your clients, the general public and towards yourself.
I wish you all the very best in more consciously expressing your feelings during this Cardinal Water lunation and Saros 127 eclipse. Thank you for taking the time to read this offering.
All rights reserved – Andrew Smith. Written at 06:58 CEDT, 29th June 2019.
Art work by Anatola Araba – http://www.anatolaaraba.com/astrologypaintings
