The Neon and Turquoise Diary on the 14th June as Uranus and Neptune octile within the Sun trioctile Mars
Deeply hidden within the language that you use, Belief goes about its daily business discreetly away from the glaring light. Whispering constantly in your ear, the language of the patriarchy has guided and informed your thought process, without question, without challenge; diving your attention into two; creating the necessity to see things as being good or bad; ever eagerly encouraging a bias towards the Yang when you ask – how are you doing, as opposed to how are you feeling; eagerly projecting your mind forward to achieve to accomplish, to produce and materialise; preferring the simplicity of reason to the complexity of understanding.
And so as the fabric of the matrix dissolves and those palisade walls that protect reality as it has been crumble, your mind struggles to try to accept that this is neither good nor bad but just is; as intense emotions are released, no longer contained snuggly within a beautifully manicured façade, your ego grapples with how will that look to those in your world if you show raw, truthful vulnerability; and as everything that you thought was your path, dissipates, you grapple with the notion that you may have done nothing wrong and the path you are walking may indeed be the correct one.
Arising out from the seed planted in 1993, the veil has thinned and the limitations of the dualism delusion are being exposed. Therefore there is no point trying to frame things within an ageing paradigm, as it will only serve to further confuse and frustrate your soul. Why not, therefore, breathe into what is emerging for you, without seeking to control the outcome; without trying to ‘see’ what is happening as being either ‘good’ or ‘bad’; without thinking you can become someone; without longing to be abundant/ successful or fulfilled. You are not broken. You never were. You are you. You are complex and contain within you many differing consciousness, each with their own scripts and patterns; each with their own realities and personalities; each with their own purposes and perspectives. As the matrix dissolves, those multiple realities are freed to express themselves, the apparent chaos is merely only chaos when seen from within the limitations of a masculine binary philosophy as opposed to it being something to celebrate as the complexity of your multidimensional sOul is liberated.
Andrew Smith © 2018
Art by Daniel Taylor