The Red Diary on the 6th December as Mutable Water Mars just about reaches Mutable Water Neptune
This has not been about physical desire and your ego making something happening. This has been all about surrendering and giving yourself over to something that ‘calls’ you – a more inclusive dream that does not concern ‘being someone’, ‘having the ideal home’ or ‘working the four hour week’. This is about purifying yourself so that spirit can move through you, without hindrance, obstacle or resistance. And that is not easy.
Exhaustion, coupled with hOpe; shame, coupled with resolve; embarrassment, coupled with forgiveness; anxiety, that will be subdued by confidence, have arisen powerfully of late, playing havoc within, yet also offering you the deepest insights into what you need to do to align yourself with vision, purpose and Spirit. The detox process has been especially acute, so too the stark realisation process. And it has been damn emotionally too, as you have faced down so many distractions. But you are on the threshold of something new. You are on the threshold of something true. You are on the threshold of something that will return to you the Light of Spirit. But for today, surrender. For today, let go. For today, feel humbled that death visits.
Andrew Smith © 2018
Art by Kadir Nelson