There are times when you will find yourself emotionally torn standing at the crossroads of conflicting emotions, each pulling you in different directions – hunger and fear, fantasy and reality, past and present, holding on and letting go, love and lOve. It is a state of internal conflict arising between the lower and higher heart, as the fruit growing on the Tree of Knowledge entices your desires, whilst the graceful Tree of Life enchants and inspires you.
In this emotional tempest, you may feel a sense of chaos and confusion, as if the very essence of who you are is unravelling. Your heart longs for resolution and clarity, while your mind grapples with the intricate complexities of your emotions, searching for a path forward. Encountering the intricate and profound nature of our inner world, you may even question the authenticity of your feelings, wondering if they are mere illusions or genuine reflections of your inner truth.
It may not feel like it, but in truth the potential to ignite profound introspection and personal growth is on offer as you are invited to explore the depths of your heart, to delve into the layers of your emotions, and to uncover the truths that lie within, opening yourself to a process of deep healing and transformation.
As you navigate this heart-labyrinth, aspects of love that have long been neglected or discarded arise, and insight can be gained into the purpose of living either with unrealised yearning or in a futuristic state, chasing the ephemeral without confronting the reality of the life you are actually living and the choices and commitments that you have made to yourself.
As hard as it is to live within the ebb and flow of your heart-tide, the true path is the one in the centre, which can only be reached through an act of acceptance and surrender. Enticement is just that – an enchanted longing for a life unfulfilled. The challenge is that often the manifest reality differs from that of your imagination, which is surmised in the oft-quoted adage– ‘you should never meet your heroes’. It is one thing to seek a heart fulfilled, it is another to do so from a place of entitlement, a place that will intentionally create hurt, or in compensation for something that is ‘missing’.
Is it really missing, or is that just the apple being presented to you?
You have been called to let go of a need for control and embrace the inherent uncertainty of your heart. Through this surrender, you can cultivate a deeper connection to your spiritual essence, recognising that there is a divine wisdom at play even within this emotional chaos.
Therefore, this weekend embrace the voyage of being emotionally torn with courage and compassion. Grant yourself permission to explore the depths of your emotions, for it is through this exploration that you can come to know yourself more fully. And in this process of growth, may you find the strength to heal, the wisdom to evolve, and the grace to navigate the intricate complexities of your beautiful heart.
Reflection on Fixed Fire Venus’ long trioctile to Mutable Water Neptune
Art by Monica Silva