The Venus Diary on the 20th November as Morning Star Cardinal Air Venus in quintile to Cardinal Earth Saturn retraces her retrograded steps as Mutable Fire Mercury squares Mutable Water Neptune
Why does it feel fresh and new, yet at the same time familiar?
Visceral flashes of past conversations, action, inactions and dramas spiral through you during quiet moments of reflection, momentarily confusing you as you are transported back in time into those intense emotional situations. Yet as those experiences are re-lived, you can feel something is different as your rejuvenated heart jumps back through time, just at the climax of the emotionally charged interaction, to guide you onto an alternative path, so that your heart is not bound to the scripts that you have so fervently healed through October.
Those experiences have etched out deep groves in your heart and only through time will they become colonised with new flora. What is different is your heart-perspective, but that too takes time to establish confidence in a new way of relating. What is emerging is but phantasms of your emotional past, no matter how tangible or intense they may still feel. But you are no longer your past, unless you choose to remain there. You maybe walking over familiar ground over the next couple of weeks but remember that your heart is not beating to the same scripts as you were in early September. You have the strength to re-live what you have experienced, but can interject a more affirmed, constructive and lOving ending, as your heart needs to re-play what has passed so that it can truly learn how to respond in the future when you find yourself back with those who have not moved on.
Andrew Smith © 2018
Image from the sleeve of Sunlight by Maelstrom
