Fixed Water Venus sextiles Cardinal Earth Saturn as Mutable Earth Mercury opposes Mutable Water Neptune
22 and 41 days to go…
Head spinning from the emotional questioning, that ancient reflection of worth and value re-surfacing, the heart battling with non-attachment and non-expectation though the head is giving a good account of itself – what are you truly gaining from where you have invested your emotional attention/ what is your true value/ have you really grown and integrated all that you say you have/ have you truly moved on/ why is it then that you seem to be a hamster on a wheel? And yet, somewhere deep within you know that everything feels different, that your responses are not as raw and immature as they have been, that you have spotted those familiar scripts much earlier than in the past and that you have taken more time to respond, even if your inner world feels shattered and chaotic. It is okay to feel raw. It is okay to have hopes. It is okay when disappointment envelopes you. You are human after all and you have deep feelings and a desire to connect intimately and truly with those in your world, even if it is not reciprocated. All you can do is to continue to lOve, and lOve again and again and again. Love has expectation but lOve does not and it is this lOve that you are truly seeking. So please remain open, after all there is nothing more painful that staying closed and building walls, even if that voice in your head seems reasonable … you are doing much, much better than you feel.
Andrew Smith © 2018
Art by Donna Coburn