The New Moon in Fixed Water opposite Uranus on the 28th October 2019 at 03:38 GMT in Dublin Ireland
Grapes are not harvested from thorns, nor are figs gathered from thistles, for they do not produce fruit. A good man brings forth good from his storehouse, an evil man brings forth evil things from his evil storehouse, which is in their heart and says evil things. For out of the abundance of the heart he brings forth evil things – The Gnostic Gospel of St. Thomas, Verse 45
What you most love, your soul will become. Your desire brings you into the experience you have in your soul’s journey. Only when you master your desire energy can you consciously direct your soul towards your inmost heart’s desires.
What is this love that the soul follows?
Everything you say or do is ultimately fuelled by an inner feeling and it is these feelings and the reality that is generated by them that govern the quality of your life. It is your inner most emotions and feelings that shape your thoughts that give outward expression of this love or desire energy. What you allow your heart to dwell on most is what you most love or desire, whether that be a constructive or challenging manifestation.
Given the busyness of modern life, do not feel upset or anxious if you do not know what consumes your heart. Many souls go through the whole day registering emotions only on a surface level, unaware of the undercurrents that pull their hearts, thoughts and perceptions. For two and a half days every month you are given an opportunity to experience the depth of your heart’s longings when the Moon dives into the Deep Lake that is the tropical sign of Scorpio. Every year, as the Sun drinks deeply from the cool draft between the 23rd/ 24th October and the 22nd/ 23rd November, you are given an insight into what you most love. There are other times also, as the other cosmic companions swim through The Deep and you experience strong and powerful currents of longings and attachments, but they are more difficult to account due to their irregular rhythms.
Moreover, you don’t have to be guided by the gentle light of the stars. You merely need to take the time to feel where your heart naturally tends to wander and there you will experience where your soul travels. As you follow your feelings, they will lead you to their Source, as it is through your feelings that you encounter the depth and power of your heart and soul.
This process requires that you slow and take stock. One of the most powerful times to do that is just before the Lights of our Solar System unite in Scorpio, a celestial union that will take place on the 28th October 2019. This lunation holds within its matrix the opportunity to renew and revitalise your heart desire. The space before this union reflects a time where you can let go outlived attachments and egoic emotional desires as you consciously discover new things about your emotional patterns and what triggers less desirable emotions in you. This new emotional self-awareness provides the foundation for learning what needs to be shifted.
In the three days leading up to this union, as you stand high above the vast stillness of your heart lake, preparing to dive headlong into its depth, allow your soul to become consumed with one thought – does your heart-energy reflect your indwelling Light or something else? What form would that image take if placed before a mirror – self-luminous and beautiful or Macbeth, consumed by shadows and darker desires?
In this way, you will discover what is in your storehouse, your heart, whether it is food good for your soul or poisons that bring your soul to sorrow, suffering and death. As you account for the stock that fills its grainy shelves, you must understand that you are not what appears. Look and see without judgement, accepting what you discover as the present conditions of your consciousness, although not the truth of your inner most being. Your state of consciousness is ever transitory, ever growing, ever nurturing your soul-seed to maturity and being-ness.
When you feel love, joy, awe or any uplifting emotion, you are literally being the expanded version of you. When you feel fear, anger, or despair you are not, in this moment, by virtue of whatever it is that you are giving your attention to, allowing yourself to be that new expanded version.
If you discover emotions that do not serve to en-light-en your soul, acknowledge them, thank them and let them go. Why? Because out of the abundance of your heart you bring forth your life and if your heart is centred on self-destructive feelings, it is what will germinate, grow and flourish. If your heart is centred on love, you will emerge at the far side of the lake, soaked, but uplifted, in love. This alone will liberate you from bondage, but a choice that is yours and yours alone to make.
Have a great swim in your Deep, a great stock taking in your Storehouse this coming lunation and may this moment be the water in which you pour onto the seeds of powerful feelings that will grow into majestic flowers.
All rights reserved – Andrew Smith. Written at 06:53 BST, 26th October 2019.