The 11th January as the Cardinal Earth Sun conjoins Cardinal Earth Pluto
Just as you thought it was seen, further layers are peeled back and you are left wondering – will it ever be truly healed? That elephant… How did it get there? Why has it returned when it was ‘seen’, discussed and rehomed? Yet there it stands, quietly contemplative, yet massively present and unavoidable. Yes, you’ve acknowledged it. Yes, you have talked about. Yes, you have dived deeply into your fractal sOul to seek answers to the question ‘what is it in me that needs to walk this path’. Yes you have understood the ancestral weave that you have been ever loyally repeated. Yes, you have looked up and out and prayed; you’ve looked down and in and forgiven; you’ve stood bare under a torrent of emotions; you’ve talked openly and truly; you’ve healed deeply and keenly. And yet, here it is. Once again. Perhaps you have not truly healed or forgiven; perhaps something in you still seeks to gain something from denial, lies, betrayal, jealousy, coercion, manipulation, game playing… those deepened, convoluted emotions that twist and squeeze the hOpe from your sOul. Perhaps you don’t want to move on or past those thorns that bite deeply? Perhaps it is merely time needed to heal, allowing memories to rise, each time weaker, as you talk more and more about the unavoidable. Whatever the reason, the elephant has reappeared and time has once again revealed deep, legacy issues that have to be acknowledged. My prayer is that, despite the frustration of once again having to deal with this unwelcome guest, you welcome him openly, engage with him, see what he wants and share openly what he says.
Here is to the gift of the elephant and the healing that he represents.
Andrew Smith © 2019
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